if you listen just right, you can almost hear it

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 02:20:45 GMT

i havent updated in a while...
its been kinda crazy at school.
ive had lots of homework, including my geography project
on Italy which i think went pretty well.
Speaking of Italy, my dad is there right now and
i am super jealous. i would have loved to have gone with him.
three more weeks of classes and then one week of finals left
of this year. lots to do within those 3 weeks.
copeland is coming to greenville on the 26th and i would really
like to go. i hope i can. well this post really was kinda pointless.
hope everyone is doing great.
love you all

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 00:40:43 GMT

all i have to say is this...MEWITHOUTYOU!!!

oh yes, they are coming to st louis april 20th!!

say what you feel

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 02:53:23 GMT

confusion is the word of the day. did i do something wrong to push you away?

im not one for confrontation and i hate conflict so when something goes wrong i really dont know what to do. i usually just keep my thoughts and feelings inside and they just keep on building and hurting even more. i would rather not say anything than for someone to be mad at me. things that have happened in the past few days have really hurt me and im at the point in my life where i know that if i dont say anything than nothing will be resolved and i will just keep on feeling crappy about myself. i cant do it anymore. i dont want to do it anymore. so ya know what... im not.

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 02:48:12 GMT

You scored as Cinderella. Your alter ego is Cinderella! You often find yourself doing a lot of housework, but if you are patient, your hard work usually pays off. You are prone to losing things, so dont rush through everything.

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Cinderella

75%

The Beast

69%

Goofy

63%

Peter Pan

56%

Sleeping Beauty

56%

Snow White

50%

Pinocchio

50%

Cruella De Ville

38%

Ariel

31%

Donald Duck

25%

Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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Fri, 04 Mar 2005 04:17:35 GMT

thursday...
it was hard getting up today at 8 for class. i had to basically drag myself out of bed, but then when i realized what day it was and that i only had to make it through geography, algebra, and healthful living before spring break was official. i got done with class around 2 and then my good friend and roommate, halley took me me to get louie( my 97 royal blue neon) that broke down on me last week. we went on an adventure to find the garage where louie was being healed. after seeing parts of edwardsville that we never knew existed, we found the garage and picked my louie up. he was running better than ever. thanks mr mechanic. you saved the day.

tomorrow im heading home for spring break. jaynelle and i are going to leave around 12. im excited to go home and see everyone. tomorrow night im going with brad to the burn service. it should be fun. i am looking forward to it. sunday i am off to the best city in the world...CHICAGO! my mom and step dad are taking me up there to see my brother and to go shopping downtown for my birthday. i love chicago. its so exciting and i think its beautiful. i want to live there someday. i am jealous of my brother cause he already lives there. sometime next week a bunch of us are going to help paint dawn and ryans house. its going to be so much fun. i cant wait! i know we are just going to laugh and goof off and i love that. its times like those that you forget about all the things in life that bring ya down. i love the moments in life when all you feel is pure joy. i wish times like those never had to end.

i hope that everyone has a great weekend and a wonderful next week.

rae

thankyou Jesus

optimism

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 00:44:41 GMT

the past couple of weeks i have had a pessimistic outlook on a lot of things. im taking alot of things that people say to heart. i dont wanna be sad. i wanna be happy. i dont want to worry about every little thing that is happening or that may happen. this week i have really been trying to be optimistic. its tuesday and so far its going really well. some things have come up but im really not going to let them bother me. God is in control and what is supposed to happen will happen.

have a wonderful day everyone

love you all

rach

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 21:29:21 GMT

Searching on the wire
for a wire,
for a peace of mind,
like the spiders in the corners
that are never there,
to the one,
to the magic sun.
you're not that bright now,
but you will be someday soon,
and you will fall in love with the moonlight.

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 05:34:30 GMT

its been a while since ive updated but nothing really excited has happened.

although our suite (rooms 253 and 254) have recently been described as resembling the cosby kids.

Jaynelle = Denise
Valerie = Vanessa
Halley = Sondra
Me = Rudy

oh how funny it is

have a wonderful night!

peace out

ray

oh ya and cassie, i win

i would like to understand

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 06:53:24 GMT

so tonight i went to the emery show in st louis with mal, katy, brenton, tony, and brian. it was packed at the creepy crawl and the two bands before emery were horrible but emery was so amazing so it was worth putting up with the other two for sure. the keyboard player is flippin sweet. he moves like no one i have ever seen and my friend katy screamed into the microphone with him and my friend mal touched his hair! it was rugged! we went to steak and shake afterwards but i didnt say more that five words. i was just listening to everyone else talking and laughing. i felt like a bystander looking in on the crowd. when i came back to the dorm some guy came in my room and told me that i reminded him of some girl form his high school. i asked him if that was a bad thing and finally some other kid said that she was ugly and annoying. that made my night go down hill. i hear that alot from people, that i remind them of someone and its always people that they dont like or they think are ugly. it hurts. im off to bed. my mom will be her soon and she will make me smile.

ray

and it was called thursday

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 06:51:07 GMT

class at 930, wake up at 910 = running very late

sat through the math class that mal, carrie, and i have 4 days a week and dread each and everyday

lunch with carrie in the skywalk

sat through health class watching the time go until the clock hits 145 cause thats when my weekend begins

watched friday night lights with mal, jarred, and katy

went to dinner with katy and ate some stir fry...yummy

sat in mals room eating chocolate and peanutbutter while we chatted

talked to brad on the phone

shop and save run with katy to pick up the movie that we have been waiting to rent-THE NOTEBOOK

talked with brad and cassie online:) ...sorry i had to go so quickly

watched THE NOTEBOOK with mal, katy, and val and cried

still sad about the movie, but its a happy sad... a heartwarming sad if that makes sense

im tired but im going to talk to cass now :)

night and love ya all

becky webster

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 16:30:54 GMT

so i just found out that becky webster(my mom) is coming to visit me this weekend at school! i cant wait for her to be here. shes so grand

the ups and downs of life

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 22:12:10 GMT

i havent updated in a while cause things have been so crazy the last couple of days. this whole week has been kinda tough. im really not even sure why. i have this feeling of not belonging or fitting in where ever i am.
i made the decision to go home for school next year instead of staying at siue. i hope im making the right decision. lately at school its been really hard for me to be happy. i feel like i have to try so hard just to be in a good mood and to put a smile on my face. its wearing me out. i just want to be happy and im sick of trying so hard just so i can be. whats wrong with me? ahh. does anyone else ever feel like this. i just bascially sit in my room all day and think. ive never been around so many people and felt so lonely. i just dont know anymore. i need to put all my trust in God. i know that He is doing something with me and he has a plan, and that keeps me going. ok well im going to stop complaining. today was my awesome roomate halleys birthday. last night when she fell asleep my friend sam and i decorated our room with ballons and streamers. i blew up so many ballons. im outta air. i set my alarm for 745 so i could wake her up at 8 and sing her happy birthday but hails woke up early!! i hope she liked it though! im off for now. im talking to cass and im taking to long! sorry! i love you cass!

ray

the weave

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 21:27:18 GMT

well i am happy to say that at this very moment jaynelle is finally taking out her weave. i must say that it has been good while it lasted, but i am glad to have the good ol jaynelle back with her wicked fro. welcome back jaynelle! (but first, jaynelle bobs her hair)

well this is what it feels like

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 00:55:40 GMT

so here i am. i have a live journal. i honestly never thought i would have one but i must tell you what an amazing feeling it is. so ya thats pretty much it for now. im just overwhelmed with excitement at the moment.